Sorry it's been so long!

With summer coming to a close I have been so busy all I can out of summer I have been neglecting my blog :/ sorry guys!

I'm nervous for my senior year to start. I am in the process of scoping out my number one college choice BYU Idaho and figuring out their amazing nursing program and what all I need to start working towards. I am also doing a volunteer program up at sacred heart hospital and trying to get a job and i just hope everything I'm doing is what is meant for me to do. I don't want to go to a college I wasn't supposed to go to in a field I shouldn't be pursuing. I have a strong testimony that God's will is a lot more important then my own. No matter how badly I want to attend Ricks if that's not where heavenly father wants me to attend then I don't want to go their. So please keep me in your prayers that I will have the strength to figure this out.

This Sunday after church I have an appointment to get my patriarchal blessing and I am so excited!! I know with such surety that this is the time I need to be getting my blessing. I am starting my senior year and about to head off to college and start my life and having that guidance in my life will be such a blessing! I have no idea what's going to be said and what I will find out and I'm soooo nervous!!! ahh!

I got to have my first missionary experience today. I mean I have always had my time to share my testimony and being friends to church but on Monday my mom vol-untold me to go over and invite the neighbor Lauren to young women's on Wednesday and I was actually very nervous because I had never been inside her house or even really hung out with her besides the time i met her. To my surprise she accepted my invite and went and I could tell she had an awesome time and was meeting new people and broke out of her shell and exchanged numbers with some friends she had made and she is excited for the pool party next week!! I hope gradually I can ask her to join us during seminary in the mornings and even come to church with me! It felt really good to know I had helped her make friends since she is new at my high school and opened the door to inviting her to more church activities!

Its The Motion of The Ocean

Ahhh!

I am trying to decide which colleges i'm serious about attending and what my major is going to be and getting through my senior year without completely losing sense of who I am. Everything is just so confusing and just so absolutely frustrating I just felt like I wanted to do this all on my own. Sometimes it's hard not to feel alone when making tough decisions in life, yes people will freely give you their opinion anytime it is asked for, and even when its not, but in the end you must do what's right for you. I have been praying and praying and when I was at the temple I was having awful stomach pains but while I was waiting to do confirmations I was reading the Book of Mormon that was available for me to read while I was waiting and came across this verse. 1 Nephi 7:12 where Nephi was chastising Laman and Lemuel for lacking in faith when asked to return to Jerusalem, Nephi said unto them that all things are possible through faith in the lord and that all things are possible according to his will if men shall exercise faith in him. After having read this scripture I realized what I needed to do.

I was so upset over my upcoming decisions that I forgot to put my faith in heavenly father, yes I prayed and prayed but never asked him with my heart full of faith and asked him according to his will. Earlier when I had gotten home from my movie I was so upset I was just fuming and then I remembered this scripture and went and read it and I had this sudden urge to look at the BYU Idaho website and all my tension and all my dread was replaced by excitement and overwhelming love for my heavenly father. The lord works in mysterious ways I may still have no idea what I want to do with my life but I know if I stand strong in my faith of the Lords will and never doubt that the decisions he makes for me are what are best for me, no one else can be the deciding factor in what I do in life besides me and my heavenly father. Together we are unstoppable.

I have had so much fun this summer I can honestly say it was the most amazing summer ever! But now as it is coming to a close I am at peace. For once I am at peace with my life and everything around me. My senior year will go by so fast. I am growing up and I don't know where all the years went by..it's sad but I know my parents have raised me to be the best and more. I have been gifted with so many wonderful people in my life that inspire me everyday. The Lord has given me my own gifts that I will share with the world to make it a better place, as I am writing this my hands are shaking and my heart is racing. I may be ready for the world but the world needs to get ready for me I am full of endless possibilities and I am never going to let an opportunity to help someone in need or better my life pass me by. After my senior year I plan on going to Denver, Colorado by myself and stay with the family I have up their. I am nervous to be on my own but I know I have been given the skills and knowledge to do whats right. I plan on climbing every mountain whether it be big or small. I plan on being me Brianne Fay Carree' no matter where that will lead me. Because remember faith is a powerful tool, and with faith Brianne Fay Carree' can not only climb those mountains..she can move them.

Skeletons in the Closet

There will always be things in life you just want to keep to yourself, but their comes a time when those skeletons are tired of hiding and they get so big and scary it's all you can do to not go run and hide. Their is nothing that is kept from heavenly father. He knows everything. He gave us that agency to make our own choices and he will be their to help us choose the right. Jesus Christ atoned for our sins so that we can seek repentance and be able to live with heavenly father again and not have to keep all those things hidden.

Today at Black Water was AMAZING!! It's so much fun to get together with all the crazy branch familys. Everyone brings their own personality and it just makes us one big happy family..floating down a river! I love the youth in the church I can honestly not tell them enough. Keeping me safely tucked away in my spiritual bubble is hard when the world comes beating down on you and makes you feel trapped but when you have friends and family around to protect you and want nothing more in life then for me to stay strong and hold onto the iron rod your not only in a spiritual bubble you are wrapped in spiritual armor.

Joshua 1:9

Be strong and of good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God will be with thee whithersoever though goest.

We have been given this scripture for a reason. This life is a test and compared to the plan of salvation the worlds happiness cannot even hold a light to eternal happiness. Trials are no easy feat to overcome, but if you stand strong and have faith in the lord Jesus Christ I bare my testimony to you that all things are possible with faith no matter how down and out you are, no matter how tough life gets heavenly father knows that pain and Jesus Christ went through that pain and they are here with loving arms waiting to engulf you in their love. It brings a smile to my face when I here people talking about loneliness and they hate being alone all the time. We are never alone as children of our heavenly father we will always have our heavenly father and that will never change. I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ amen.

Just another beautiful dayy,

My mom always used to tell my sister when Brittany used to have crazy curly red hair,which she hated at the time, that being original is so much better then being like everyone else. My sister never understood that having red hair was so much better then having straight blonde hair like everyone else and my mom put it like this; when you put everyone in a room you want to be the first everyone looks at. What's a better way then to have gorgeous red hair that attracts everyones attention, then when you have them you mesmerize them with you wonderful personality and charm. So having something that no one else has or doing something that no one else does is not something to be ashamed of its something to share with the world. Being a member of the Church of Latter Day Saints of Jesus Christ and following the standards heavenly father has set for us makes it where there are a lot of things that I don't participate in and things I do that stand out like huge elephant in an room. Because I do those things and am so original I will be blessed and when people notice that i'm different I never take it in an negative light because I enjoy being different :p!

youth conference :)

From left to right

Chantel, Arianna, ME, Lily :)

That is all of us after lunch at youth conference walking to the troy auditorium!

Life is what we make of it.

Noone can force us to do something we don't want to do. Satan has no real bond over what we do, unless you let him. Recently I have been reading my scriptures more hanging out with people of my standards more and giving everything I have into being the best I can be. I can honestly say I have never been happier then when i'm doing family scripture study and hanging with my crazy friends amongst the church. like Chantel, Mallorie, the Alvarez girls, Hunter, Arianna, and Brooke each and every one of them have such a sweet spirit and I hold all of them very dear to me.

On bishop night at girls camp when President Cole came to talk to us he told us all that these are the moments we will look back on when life gets tough and we feel out of control. We will look back on the people who loved us unconditionally and times when we were at our happiest doing what was right.

How you look at life completely effects the way you enjoy it. I one hundred percent agree with that. When you are positive you will have so much more enjoyable memories out of life rather then when you were sulking about a time you did not get your way. To be positive you have to be living a positive life style and live the standards God has set for us. Sin is only a temporary satisfaction, heavenly fathers love is eternal. I can't remember word for word but Brother Anderson from the Quorum of the Seventy said that sometimes we give up eternal glory for something we wanted in the moment. Which happens all the time, sin is made out to be something that we can enjoy and should all be enjoying but in the scheme of life living a righteous life is so much more important and has so many more blessings then living in sin which is only a cheap imitation of happiness. sin was never happiness.

Today was mormon movie night and it was awesome being with all my friends and joke around and have such a good time without worrying about all the problems on my mind. like college and what i will do in my future and WHERE THE HECK IS MY FUTURE HUSBANDD! ;) haha! well good day!

i said good day!

so their were two muffins in an oven..

and one muffin said " its so hott in here" and the other muffin said " OH MY GOODNESS A TALKING MUFFIN!" hahahah :)

Yesterday at church my teacher felt inspired to share with us part of his patriarchal blessing with my Sunday school,consisting of four youth including me, and it got me thinking how I have gotten my interview for getting my blessing but have not gotten around to getting it. I was to scared and worried that I was not prepared for all the knowledge I was about to receive and I know we can only get it done once and I want to make sure that I am where I need to be when I get my blessing so I can get the most out of it. keeping myself righteous is a 24/7 battle with all the temptation I get, but I know if I keep my mind clean I can do it. so now i'm starting to think about all the things I need to do to get prepared for my blessing and its a little overwhelming.
Also during sunday school their has been a troubling issue on my mind about what happens when a missionary who is unworthy goes on his mission. So he then told me all about his mission and how in his area some unworthy things happened to some of his companions and they would be sent home, and I left with not the real answers that I wanted. after third hour he came and found me and said he felt like he did not answer my question correctly and then I told him about youth conference and how Brother Anderson from the quorum of the seventy had us ask any questions we were inspired to ask and I was too afraid to ask. Then he told me how when he was going over his lesson plan something didn't feel right and decided to this instead and now he knows why. I needed to have my question answered because this has been bothering me for months now. that how someone can lie and go on a mission and still do the things the lord wants him to do. he told me that I should pray and the lord will be able to answer my question.

when I get my answer i will be sure to let you all know! but who knows when that will be because the lord works in mysterious ways and its his timetable not mine!

It was so amazing to know that my sunday school teacher felt through the spirit that he needed to have a day where we all talked about what was on our minds. the power of the priesthood is a very powerful thing and I have a strong testimony that it is a true thing.

:)